Today was one of those days. While it takes a lot to rattle this girl, I met my limit while checking my email this morning. A seemingly tiny mistake quickly snowballed into me sobbing on the phone with a coworker about totally fucking up. I pride myself on being a competent and caring professional. Yet today I questioned everything that I am and shame-spiraled into berating myself. While I am very much my own biggest fan, I can also be my strongest, most vocal and mean critic. And for a couple of hours today that is just what happened.
Luckily I have an office where I can visibly freak out and reach for 10398 Kleenex if necessary. And even more luckily I was able to ammend the situation by the day’s end. But there’s nothing like an “oh shit” moment to really make you reevaluate how you do things and what you can do to grow and improve. A day of learning? Oh yes.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hZ9nozM83ng
(While my sentiments didn’t match this entirely there were a few moments where I wanted to scream and/or gesture wildly. Thank you, Spring Awakening, for the proper emotion. )
(Also? Now I really want to experience this musical again.)
